An adiabatic condition worked within the four walls where my feelings stayed unescaped.my heat and mass transfer subject theories well applied in the unexplainable conditions.
Killing time became the prime priority to perceive  the day next.I kept switching the gadgets dat turned nerd now.
  That n8 i noticed some strange scientific reasons further slowed the movement of dead slow hour hand of d clock.dead slow that even the farthest galaxy could hav  possibly been more nearer than the next beautiful morning.i decided to recall my past to advocate what went wrong in my case, last time,before trying the extremes to bury d feelings deep.to paint d pain before formatting my brain.2 sense my late adolesence,once again.

Having earned a pain that could even defeat Morphines and all anesthetics put together.the ache pestered,hindering my perfectly functional senses to a full stop.the sleep hormones called for a indefinite strike that terminated me from dreaming my now ex.for me crying was meant only for girls, and it checked my filled dam from a possible outbreak.
     A sleep deprieved me kept redistributing myself to the length & breadth of the single bed to put my tormented eyes to rest,and yet, my fate dint allow that to happen.

The clock ticked 11pm,d calender claimed d date,20 march 13.
tonnes of guilt clouded ma mind for the coarse slang i used against her 2 months back.being irristant to d thoughts my fingers showed up d courage to search down n dial her number.
Hoping for the best,i waited giving a ear to d speaker,humming to d caller tune which i felt amazing then.then it came a computer recorded voice 2 confirm"d person u r trying 2 reach is currently not acceptng any calls"

 10minutes of video was halted when i felt d vibration,d screen displayed'sherin calling'

'Hello,i just called u 2 say sory 4 dat day n m sory,thtsit.'i said.


'kisko call kiya tune,kisse baat karna hein tereko???
tu vineeth hi hena??bata kyun call kiya?'asked a boy.

I felt my veins expanding,his voice invaded my senses,my brain erased out everytng 2 recognize dat unfamiliar male voice from her cell.

'haan vineeth hun,tuje kaise malum aur tu hein kaun?'

 The screams of his deafened my Ears.

'chutiye,raat ko kisse baat karne ke liye call kiya bhosdike?'

My consious mind dint allowd me 2 stay silent hearing to his abusing language.

'haan,teri maa ko call kiya,chodna hein muje.ab natak nahi kar aur de sherin ko phone.'i fired back.

'bhosdike,tu hein kaun?apni jagah  bata.kyun baat karna hein usse?'he cried.

'woh meri friend hein,kush?muje sorry bolna tha isliye call kiya so pls usse phone de pls.'i begged.

Bang d call dropped.

I kept staring at d hung up call.
 I wished i died,i wished i was blind n deaf,i wished my hands reached him to strangle him 2 gift death.the all gud moments came like a flash,faded d nostalgic scenes when my eyes blurred coz of d heavy working tear glands.i couldnt imagine her doing things with anybody else.i wished it all i experienced was a Nightmare to wake  my hell up.but it wasnt.

The cell rang again.fixing my headset i attended d call controlling my emotions,pretending to be strong.

"Hello,who the fuck are you & what next?"i asked.

 A familiar voice sped through my innocent ears,followd by their love making scene where d cell exchanged between the two .

"kyun call kiya vineeth?its all over now.forever.i know what is going between you and diksha..jo karna hein kar le uske saath.usse call karna ab"

"I am sory,i just wantd 2 apologiz 4 dat day n i..."i tried explaining.

"Vineeth,u told me everytng u wantd dat day.u called me a slut vini.i hate myself dat i loved u,cheap of u man.u dint even spare my mum or dad.shame on u.i loved u.but never again.'
 'Its over now,gudbye,pls' she shouted.
"I wont,all d best,bye

"i dropped d call by bidding a gudbye though i realy didnt wantd to.

D battery cried,d cell vibrated again.
"Hello,ab kya sympathy dikhane call kiya?"still pretendng cool i asked.
" vini,hez my new boyfrnd & my parents r ok with it so pls dont disturb me hereafter"
"I wont,bye"
I could hear him asking for d cell.
"Hello vineeth,m sory for tokng rude Yaar,m rahul.& shez my girlfriend now so dont dare to cal her"

 Cursing 2 d core,i smiled n replied
"Congrats man,u r lucky"
"Oyy congrats vangrats bandh kar emotional devdas,ab sympathy paane ke liye bulkar bi usse call nahi karna samja,ab phone rakh.bye."he angered.
"Haan,dnt wory.i wont n i dont,bye".

Sittng in d ground i wondered,if true love exists,whether she realy loved me ever,was i used by her,if i ever knew d course of girls love?
D stars glew bright,d breeze couldnt even chill me slight.my neuros dint allow me 2 do anytng after that.
 Then,i delted all our pics.though with half heart i wished,she never get into any kinda trouble.atleast not in a MMS 4 people 2 fantasize.i wished he loved her alot n keep her hapy,and also dat she ever gets 2 think i loved her d most and the best thing she witnessed was me.
D Next day i decided to change my number n deactivate my facebook to make a new start.